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  • Jasmine’s Blog – Why Mommy and Daddy Want to Adopt Me?

    Date: 2015.12.23 | Category: Jasmine's Blog

    In China people say I can not get adopted because I can not walk. But one day they told me that a family did want to adopt me. Mommy and daddy thought I had spina bifida, but the paperwork was wrong. I have something else.

    When mommy and daddy see me on adoption day they thought I had muscular dystrophy. After mommy and daddy meet me I was really worried that they would take me back to the orphanage. The nannies told that when my mommy and daddy saw me they would take me back because I can not walk. In China you have 24 hours to decide if you want to keep the kids or not.

    But mommy and daddy didn’t take me back to leave me there. They took me back to the orphanage to hand out clothes that mommy and daddy had brought for the kids. The kids were so happy when I handed out the clothes. It was so much fun!

    I come America and I have back surgery for my scoliosis. After they did a muscle biopsy, the doctors know I have spinal muscular atrophy (SMA).

    When I was in China, I thought no one could love me because I couldn’t walk or do anything. But after that I tell mama and she said, “She doesn’t love me because I can do anything.” Mama said that she fell in love with me the first time she saw my face. Daddy said the same thing.

    Before they saw my face, mommy and daddy had said they would not adopt older kids. They said they wouldn’t adopt anyone over 4 because it wouldn’t work in the family. But mommy and daddy saw my face and fell in love and thought God was saying “that is your daughter”.

    Because mommy and daddy love me they adopt me, not because I can walk. They adopt me because they love me. Mommy and daddy went very far to come adopt me.

    In China, mommy and daddy take me shopping and out to eat. I didn’t talk to daddy very much because I was a little afraid. The boys I knew in China were mean. They not nice to talk to. I talk to mommy because she is so funny. I didn’t understand what Cassie and mommy were saying but they were so funny. They make me laugh because they singing songs like potty time.

    One time in China mommy and daddy dance. They so cute. I knew daddy was silly and he is ok because he dance with mama.

    I didn’t know very much English so I couldn’t understand. I learned to say and sign “eat, potty, drink, and thank you”.

    This year has been hard for me because I think mommy and daddy will leave me too. I think it would be better if everyone else hate me so my heart won’t hurt again. I try to make everyone mad. Mommy and daddy said they know I do this because I am afraid they are going to leave me so I want to leave first.

    But now I know mommy and daddy won’t leave me because I said bad things and made everyone mad but they still love me and forgive me.

    I believe I have a purpose and God has a plan for me. I don’t know what all I will do yet, but I know He has plan.

    Sometimes it is hard for me and I get jealous that my sister can walk and do things like have a boyfriend and go shopping and out to movies. But sometimes I think she has her own life and I have my own life too. Jealousy is not good though. It just makes you really, really mad. Mama say it is ok to get mad but you can’t be mean to anyone else.

    Sometimes when I hear people say something, I think people mean one thing and they didn’t really say that. I let me get really mad and I shouldn’t do that. I should ask people what they said and be sure. God doesn’t want me to get really mad and be mean. He wants me to trust.

    Sometimes if you are sad you should talk about it because that way you won’t be mad all day long. Talking to mommy and daddy helps. You can play games with your sisters or do something else to take your mind off of it. They understand.

    Everybody has problems they go through and lots of people have it worse than me. I have to see the good stuff in my life.

    The last couple months I have been really mad and thinking I shouldn’t write my blog any more. I think I don’t have anything to say. I just being mean to everyone. I am mad and sad.

    Mama says I can do whatever I want to do. I decided I want to write my blog so other people understand what it is like to be older when adopted and what it is like to not be able to move. I realized that there are lots of people who are worse off then me. They don’t have food, or a house, or a family that loves them.

    I have a power wheelchair. If my stuff breaks, mommy and daddy will fix it. Mommy and daddy came to adopt me and gave me lots of brothers and sisters. I have a silly mommy and daddy. I have lots of brothers and sisters who help me do stuff. They all take care of me because they love me.

    I know why mommy and daddy adopt me…because they LOVE me!

     

  • Jasmine’s Blog – We Can Adopt Again

    Date: 2015.12.03 | Category: Adoption, Jasmine's Blog

    One day mama show me and Gracie and Elyse the photo of a kid in a wheelchair.  Her name is Belinda.  She is very cute!

    She has kidney issues like Gracie has.  Her legs don’t work like Elyse’s.  She has a curve in her back like me.   We ask mama if we can adopt her but mama say no!

    Mama say we are not adopt any more. We ask mama “Why?”.  Mama say, “We have a lot of kids.”

    We keep asking mama we can adopt one more.  Just one more time! But mama say, “No!”.  Daddy say, “No!”.  I ask mama can we try adopt her please, please, please, please mama?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I say, “I don’t care if China say yes just can we try?”

    Mama said, “No.  We not adopt.  You can talk about her on your page.”  My friend, Alice’s, friend just got adopted.  Alice talk about her and I talk about her and she find her family. She almost 14 on October 14.  Mama say we can do the same for Belinda.

    One day mama show me the video about Belinda.  She is very pretty and very cute and she very pretty and she also very sad.  She want a family!!!!  🙂

    I tell mama we have to adopt her or find her family.  Mama say ok.  Later we see on Facebook that she have a family.  I say ok and Elyse say ok and Gracie just cry.  We all upset because we think that God told us she is our sister, but now another family will go get her.  Gracie cry all night and Elyse so so sad.  I am very sad too cause she is my sister.

    We are sad all day long but we try to be happy for her because she has a family.  The next day daddy say he can find who her family is so we can watch her get adopted.  That day Jan came to update our home study.  She has to do this after we are adopted for China.

    That night daddy said, “Sit down on the couch so I can show you the picture of Belinda’s family.”  Daddy showed us our family and says we are going to adopt her. He says her name is going to be Jessica.

    We are so really, really happy that we can adopt her but Elyse keep saying that daddy and mama are lying.  It take Elyse a long time to believe it but then she is so happy.

    Every day we pray that Jessica can come to America very fast because she is very sick.  We got a message that she was in the hospital for 23 days.  She is very little.  She is almost 8 and they say 24 pounds.  That is pretty little.  We want her to come see doctors and get better.  Mama try to do the paperwork really fast so mama and daddy can go get her.

    We really love our new sister.   We tell daddy one is okay.  Elyse say 3 would be good but she ok with one right now.   We adopt one more time.

  • Jasmine’s Blog – My Little Siblings

    Date: 2015.09.30 | Category: Family Life, Jasmine's Blog

    I like having little siblings.  They like running, playing and sometimes they like to watch me play the I-pad.  We like to play Mario Kart together.  They give lots of hugs and kisses.

    Ben Ben

    He really likes to play Mario Kart.   Sometimes I play with him.  He is always so happy.  I remember when I come home to America Ben Ben was very blue, but now Ben Ben is very pink.  He is all better.   He can run now, really, really fast.  I see pictures when he come home he was pretty little.   Now he is so much bigger.

    Jazz & Ben

    Max

    I like watch Max eating.  He gets so happy when he eats.  He really likes the food.  His favorite food is noodles.  He laughs so hard and he can’t stop laughing.  Max likes to pat your head and kiss your head.  He likes to follow Ben Ben around and do stuff.  He likes to run.  We have had to teach Max how to hug.  Sometimes when I hug him he gets so happy he laughs and can’t stop.   Sometimes he likes to sit on my lap and touch my hair.  Max was sad when he come home to America but he right now is not scared anymore and is a very happy boy.

    Max and Jazz

    Maisey

    When I come home Maisey is very little.  Maisey have very little ears.  Maisey can hear a little bit.  She like watch princesses and Barbie.  She likes to read book.  She says she going to be a librarian.  She read books all day long.  She is like Cassie.  I hear mama say Cassie read books all day when she is little.  Maisey likes to dance and run really fast.  Maisey is very quiet.  Maisey is getting to be a big girl.

    Maisey and Jazz

    Lainey

    I remember in China Lainey don’t stop crying and she had lots of seizures.  All day she would cry and cry.  We don’t know how to make her happy.  When we get home she get better.  Right now she is very, very happy.  Her favorite food is french fries.  She can’t eat lots of food but she really like french fries.   I like to feed Lainey her rice cereal.  Every time I feed her food she is really happy and claps her hands and signs please.

    Lainey

    Evie

    I remember in China we got to get Evie and Lainey.  Mema let me hold Evie she was so very little.  She only weigh 13 pounds and she is 2.  She was happy.  She likes to eat rice cereal too.  I sat on the bed and fed her rice cereal.  She was a very happy little girl but she was very sick.  She was so really, really blue.  She is a very happy.

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    Evie likes to ride with me on my wheelchair.  I buckle her in and go around the path.  She is not blue any more either she is not sick any more she is pink.  She likes to sing and dance.  She likes to be really silly with Eli.

    Jasmine & Evie

    Eli

    When we go Eli in China he said “bu yao” all the time.  He was not happy in China but right now he is really happy.   He likes to play Mario Kart.  When Evie and Eli dance together it is really funny.  They are like twins.  Before Eli was really blue too but now he is all fixed.  He is pink too.  He is not sick anymore.  He likes to dance.  He is a very good dancer.

    Eli

    I like to have little siblings.  They are really funny and cute.  I love them and they love me.

  • Jasmine’s Blog – First Time Meet Mama

    Date: 2015.08.16 | Category: Jasmine's Blog

    *Jasmine started to write this blog and it made her very sad.  She had about half of it written.  It was taking a long time to write it out so we decided to try something different.  She dictated her words to me and I typed them and then we google translated the last half and she corrected it.  

    第一次跟妈妈见面
    *茉莉花开始写这个博客,这让她很伤心。她了花费很长的时间写出来,所以我们决定尝试一些不同的方法。她决定她说话给我听,我来打字。
    我第一次跟妈妈见面的,她收养了我。她和我在沙发上坐了下来。她抱着我。我觉得奇怪,因为我从来没有人拥抱我。但是妈妈抱着我的时候,我觉得我的心里如此温暖和充满爱。
    我们回到了酒店。在酒店妈妈问我想吃什么东西?我说我想吃肯德基。妈妈去买肯德基回来。我吃肯德基。这个真的好好吃。当我吃完了所有的肯德基,妈妈帮我洗澡。
    我很害怕,当我见到妈妈。我不知道,她是不是很好还是不好的。我知道我的妈妈很好,因为在那个晚上,我要水,她去把它给我喝。当我问别人给我弄水,他们就嚷嚷,说你不能有水喝,如果你喝水你就会去便盆。
    妈妈知道怎么唱。她唱歌,我不知道她说的话。我不明白,但我觉得妈妈很搞笑。有时候妈妈喜欢给我挠痒痒。她妈妈很喜欢唱歌。我也很喜欢唱歌。妈妈喜欢跳舞。
    妈妈和大姐带我去便盆。他们唱歌,我不明白。他们是非常愚蠢的。当我做的一切,他们会说耶!他们总是让我发笑。我从来不知道傻了,直到我见到妈妈。
    在晚上的时候,我和妈妈睡在一起。我很高兴,因为我觉得妈妈的小宝贝,因为我从来都没有和自己妈妈睡觉在一起我的第一个mama.1
    我的第一个妈妈,她不爱我。我小的时候我没有经常看到我的第一个妈妈非常多。我不知道为什么第一个她妈妈不喜欢我。有一次我生病了。我真的希望我的第一个妈妈能来看我在医院里,但是她不来看我。那个时候,我真的很伤心。我说:“为什么妈妈不想来看我呢?”我生病了,为什么她不来看我。我说,“她是我的妈妈吗?或不是我的妈妈?”她像我不是在她的肚子里生的。
    有时候,我看到有一个爸爸还有妈妈带她们的孩子去什么地方玩呀的,去吃饭,或者去逛街的呀,我为什么不能?有时候,我觉得很伤心,因为我没有妈妈和爸爸要带我去什么地方,或者去什么地方玩,或有乐趣的爸爸妈妈或。我只是住在一起,我奶奶和我的爷爷。奶奶是好的。她带我去学校一点点。爷爷喜欢喝坏的东西。他去上班。他不是很好。他会变当他喝酒。他会非常生气,
    妈妈第一次来看我在孤儿院。她没有说什么给我。她只是看着我。我觉得很悲哀。我不明白为什么我的家人这样对我。我小的时候,没有人爱我。我去学校,我没有人和我玩,因为我不能走路只可以是坐在椅子上,因为我不能走路。老师对我很好。孩子们还没有很好的。孩子们跑到外面玩耍的发挥。我没有与任何人玩。
    有一天,当我在学校我奶奶和我的叔叔和爷爷没有来接我回家。他们忘了我在学校里。一整天,晚上我坐在桌旁。他们来接我回家,在晚上11点。我很喜欢这所学校,他们教了我很多。我现在能去为3或4个月。我需要停下来,因为我奶奶带我去孤儿院。
    我的祖母告诉我,我们去看看我的哥哥。我没有看到我的哥哥。她走到我送到孤儿院,但她说她会来接我在新的一年。我哭了,哭了。我很害怕。我不吃饭。保姆是可怕的。我明白了做保姆与其他孩子,我很害怕。奶奶参观了我几次,但她在新的一年后,再也没有回来。
    孤儿院转移到另一座大楼。我们先住在老房子的5或10个孩子,然后我们去新楼。我看到奶奶有一次在新的建筑,然后她永远不会再来。
    当我年纪大了我的第一个妈妈又生了一个孩子。这个孩子得了病,总是去医院。我的第一个妈妈去医院她花所有的时间与宝宝。我没有再见到那个孩子。我想我的奶奶带我去孤儿院,她可以带的婴儿。我不知道。
    有一天,在我生日那天我第一个妈妈来看​​我,在我奶奶家,她来看我,但我的叔叔送给我礼物。当她来到她不会给我的礼物,连拥抱都给我她还是看着我。我不知道为什么。
    我没有一个妈妈了13年。我几乎14,当我得到通过,并去美国。我喜欢有一个妈妈。它感觉很好有妈妈爱你。妈妈可以照顾你。妈妈带我逛街,出去玩,去一起吃饭,做有趣的东西。
    我妈妈陪着我在医院里。我做四次手术,她留在我身边所有的时间,我在医院里。她睡在我的房间。妈妈永远不会离开我在医院里呆着。我喜欢妈妈陪着我在医院里。有时候我很生气,因为我有很多不好的回忆,但妈妈不生气。妈妈让我冷静下来。
    我知道我的妈妈是爱我的。

    First time I meet mama, she adopted me. She and me sat down on the couch.  She hold me.  I feel weird because I never had people hug me.  But mama hug me, I feel my heart so warm and full of love.

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    We went back to the hotel.  In the hotel mama ask me I want to eat what food?  I said I want to eat KFC.  Mama go buy KFC and came back.   I eat KFC.  It is really good.  When I all done eat KFC, mama help me take a bath.

    I was scared when I meet mama. I not know if she nice or not nice.  I knew my mama was nice because in the night I ask for water and she go get it for me.  When I ask others to get me water they would yell and say you can no have water because you have to go potty.

    Mama knows how to sing.  She sing and I don’t know what she saying.  I don’t understand but I feel mama is very funny.  Sometime mama like to tickle me.  Mama she very like to sing.  Me too I like to sing too.  Mama like to dance.

    Mama and big sister had to take me to the potty.   They sing songs I don’t understand.   They be very silly.  When I all done, they yelled yay!  They make me laugh.   I never knew silly until I meet mama.

    In the night I and mama sleep together.  I very happy because I feel like mama’s little baby because I never sleep by my first mama.

    My first mama she don’t loves me.  I little I don’t see my first mama very much.  I don’t know why first mama don’t like me.  One time I get sick.  I really hope my first mama can come see me in hospital, but she not come and see me.  That time I really sad.  I said, “Why mama don’t want to come see me?”   I am sick so why she not come see me.  I say, “Is she my mama or not my mama?”  She act like I not in her tummy.

    Sometimes I see the kids that have a daddy and mama that go play somewhere, go eat, or go shopping with kids, why can’t I?  Sometimes I feel very sad because I don’t have daddy or mama that want to take me go somewhere or go play somewhere or have fun.  I just live with my grandma and my grandpa.  Grandma is nice.  She take me go to school for a little bit.  Grandpa like to drink bad stuff.  He go to work.  He not very nice.  He get very mad when he be drinking.

    Mama one time come to see me in the orphanage.  She not say anything to me.  She just look at me.  I feel very sad.  I don’t understand why my family do that to me.  I feel like I little and nobody love me.  I went to school and nobody played with me because I had to just sit on a chair because I not walk.  Teacher was nice to me.  The kids were no nice.  The kids went outside to play for playtime.  I not have nobody to play with.

    One day when I was in school my grandma and my uncle or my grandpa no come and get me.  They forget I at the school.   I sit at the table all day and night.  They come get me at 11 at night. But I like the school they teach me lots.  I get to go for 3 or 4 months.     I need to stop because my grandma take me to orphanage.

    My grandma tell me we go see my brother.  I no see my brother.  She walk me up to the orphanage but she say she will come get me in New Year.  I cried and cried.  I was very scared.  I do not eat.  The nannies were scary.  I see what the nannies do with the other kids and I was scared.  Grandma visited me a couple times but she didn’t come back after the new year.

    The orphanage moved to another building.  We first lived in an old house with 5 or 10 kids and then we go to new building.  I see grandma one time in new building and then she never come again.

    When I was older my first mama had a baby again.  This baby got sick and always go to the hospital.  My first mama go to the hospital all the time with the baby.   I didn’t see that baby again.  I think my grandma took me to orphanage so she could take care of that baby.  I don’t know.

    One day on my birthday my first mama come to see me at my grandma’s house, she come and see me but my uncle gave me gift.  When she come she not bring me gift, not hug me or look at me.  I don’t know why.

    I didn’t have a mama for 13 years.   I almost 14 when  I get adopted and go to America.  I like having a mama.  It feels so good to have a mama love you.  Mama can take care of you.   Mama takes me shopping, out to play, go eat together, and do fun stuff.

    jazz and mama

    My mama stay with me in the hospital.  I do four time surgeries and she stay with me for all the time I in the hospital.  She sleep in my room.  Mama never leave me in the hospital by myself.  I like mama stay with me in the hospital.  Sometimes I get mad because I have lots of bad memories but mama not mad.  Mama just let me calm down.

    mom and Jasmine

    I know my mama loves me.

  • Jasmine’s Blog – My Dream

    Date: 2015.07.07 | Category: Jasmine's Blog, Jasmine's Dream

    Jasmine has a dream.  We are working with Love Without Boundaries to set up a fund for her to help with adoption grants for children who are aging out and desperately need a family.  Love Without Boundaries (LWB) was the group that advocated for Jasmine to be adopted.

    Jasmine was one of those aging out children.  In fact, we adopted her just two weeks shy of her 14 birthday.  In China, after the age of 14, you are no longer able to be adopted. She has decided to make this her life’s goal.

    Jasmine’s story also tells of a grandma who tried to care for her but was no longer physically able to.  For this reason, Jasmine would like to help with the Unity Fund too.  This is LWB’s initiative to help families stay together.  It provides medical care that the family can not afford it so that they may keep their child and not have to abandon them.

    It’s easy to stand on this side of the world, where we can walk into any ER for treatment, and stand in judgment of these parents.   But we can’t even grasp what it takes for some of these parents to let their children go in hopes that they can get the treatment they need.

    Jasmine’s two sisters, Grace and Elyse, are a big part of this plan.  These girls divide their allowance and send it off to children who capture their heart. It’s a beautiful bond and a beautiful thing to watch.

    Three girls

    We have set up a new Facebook page for Jasmine to highlight some of these children and to raise awareness for them called Jasmine’s Dream.

    Here is her most recent blog.

    MY DREAM

    我的梦想

    我的梦想是想帮助孤儿。我的希望是有一天世界上会没有孤儿。

    我想帮助一些青春年孩子,因为他们非常想要家庭。他们想有家庭的爱。我还希望当他们生病和动手术的时候,他们的父母能陪在他们身边,这样她们就不会害怕了。

    我觉得我长大了之后我会结婚。我想在我30岁的时候收养很多的小孩,因为中国说你得等到30岁的时候才能收养小孩。我觉得我不会生小孩,因为我是非常的想收养小孩。我想当一个好妈妈,就像我的妈妈一样,让我的孩子在家里上学。我会教他们英语、美国手语、和中文。我好期待去完成我的梦想❤

    My dream is to help orphans. My hope is that one day there are no more orphans in the world.

    I want to help some older kids, because they want a family very much. They want to have a family’s love. I also hope that during their sickness and surgeries, their parents would sit beside them, so they wouldn’t be scared.

    I think I will get married when I grow up. I want to adopt kids when I turn 30, because China said you have to wait until you are 30 to adopt. I think I wouldn’t have babies, because I want to adopt so much. I want to be a good mom, like my mom, and homeschool my kids. I will teach them English, ASL (American Sign Language), and Chinese. I can’t wait to complete my dreams.

  • Jasmine’s Dream – Hospital Stay

    Date: 2015.04.02 | Category: Jasmine's Blog

    四次手术

    在1月12号爸爸妈妈带我去了医院做了好多的检查,然后爸爸妈妈带我去吃很辣的面!然后我们又去了电影院叫安娜的一个电影。

    在1月13日医生在我的背后做了手术。在手术之前,医生让我喝了一个非常非常苦的药。妈妈跟了我说医生会把铁的东西放在我的背上而且六个星期我才可以坐下来。后来我就不知道发生什么事情了。

    我的手术花了五个小时。等我醒来的时候迷迷糊糊的。我听见妈妈说:“你好茉莉花。”那时我感觉我的背很痛,痛得晚上的时候我都睡不着觉。

    我在医院住院了六天。然后我和爸爸妈妈回家了。回到家的时候我吃不了很多东西,但是一天我感觉好冷好冷然后又好热好热的,于是爸爸妈妈就带我去医院检查。妈妈说我发了高烧。

    我没有想到的是我又要住院了。我去了一个大医院去做手术。医生又打开我的背地。这个是第二次手术。

    然后有一天我的背流水了。我不知道为什么会流水。我很害怕因为我又要做手术了。我第三次的手术花了一个小时。

    几天我又动了手术因为我的背又流水了。四次手术都让我很害怕。

    Surgery Four Times

    On January 12th, Dad and Mom took me to the hospital for many health checks. Then Dad and Mom took me to eat super spicy noodles! Then they took me to the movie theater to watch “Anna”.

    On January 13th the doctor did surgery. Before the surgery, the doctor had me drink a super bitter medicine. Mom told me that the doctor would put a metal thing on my back and I can’t sit up for six weeks. Then I don’t know what happened.

    My surgery took 5 hours. When I woke up I was little dizzy. I heard Mom say, “Hello, Jasmine.” At that time my back really hurt. It hurt so much that I couldn’t sleep at night.

    I spend 6 days in the hospital. Then Dad, Mom and I went home. When we got home I couldn’t eat many things. One day I felt super hot and one day I felt super cold, so Dad and Mom took me back to the hospital, and Mom said that I fever.

    I couldn’t believe I had to live in the hospital again. I went to a big hospital for surgery. The doctor opened my back. That was my second surgery.

    Then one day my back was bleeding. I didn’t know why it was bleeding. I was very scared because I had to have another surgery. My third surgery took one hour.

    A few days later I had another surgery. Four surgeries made me very scared.

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    Mama’s blog about the hospital stay – Jasmine’s Journey

     

    让我最害怕的事情

     

    当我知道我要动手术我很兴奋因为我的背会变得很直而且我会变得很高!但是我也很害怕因为我会在医院住几天。同时我也害怕妈妈和爸爸会把我丢在医院里因为曾经有这件事情发生在我的身上而且那个时候我很害怕。

     

    有一次这个事情让我我的心好乱然后我和妈妈吵了架。这件事的原因是我不想玩那个茶会。我觉得自己的心很小就因为这一小件事情就和妈妈吵架了。妈妈问我说到底这么了。我说我没什么。妈妈问我生气吗?我说没有。妈妈又问我伤心吗?我说我没有。

     

    其实我对妈妈说谎。我很害怕妈妈和爸爸把丢在医院里。我跟妈妈说了这件事。妈妈说她不会把丢在医院里的。我相信了妈妈但是我的心里还是很害怕。

     

    在医院的日 子有妈妈和爸爸陪伴我!我很开心她们没有丢下我。妈妈和爸爸和我一起经历痛苦。有时候我哭闹像一个小孩子一样的因为我不喜欢医院里的那些东西,因为有时候那些东西让我好害怕。

    The Things That Scared Me the Most

     
    When I knew I was going to have surgery I was very excited because my back will be very straight and I will be very tall! However, I also was very scared because I would be staying in the hospital for a couple of days. At the same time I also scared that mom and dad will leave me at the hospital because it happen to me before and I was very scared at the time.
     
    One time my heart messed up and because of this feeling and I had a fight with mom. The reason of the fight was because I didn’t want to play tea party. I thought I have a very small heart because I get mad with mom just because of that small stuff. Mom asked me what was wrong. I said nothing. Mom asked me if I was mad or not and I said no. Mom asked if I was sad or not and I said no.
     
    Actually I lied to mom. I was very scared that mom and dad will leave me at the hospital. I told mom and she said that she will not leave me at hospital. I believe mom but I still scared of it.
     
    The days in the hospital I had mom and dad beside me! I was very happy they didn’t leave me. Mom and dad went through the pain with me. Sometimes I cried like little kids because I didn’t like the stuff in there, because sometime that stuff really scared me.
  • Jasmine’s Blog – Merry Christmas

    Date: 2014.12.24 | Category: Jasmine's Blog

    圣诞节

    圣诞节就要到了!我想大家一定都喜欢圣诞节吧!我非常喜欢圣诞节。在圣诞节的时候我们可以打开礼物。你的家人会送你礼物,而且你会收到你最喜欢的礼物!

    其实当我来到美国的时候我不知道什么是圣诞节,因为我在福利院的时候我从来没有过过圣诞节。在圣诞节的时候他们要做什么呢?

    但是现在我知道圣诞节是什么了。圣诞节就是神的生日!

    好多人都收到礼物!还有我们把好多装饰挂在圣诞树上!

    我要告诉你们,我们家人的圣诞礼物就是新妺妺Elyse 和弟弟Max!我的妈妈现在还在中国接我的妹妹Elyse 还有我的新弟弟Max他们很快就会回到这个家庭里来!这是我们最好的圣诞节礼物,我们非常非常的兴奋!我们是非常的开心他们来到这个家庭!

    我们爱你们Elyse Max!!!

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    Christmas

    It’s almost Christmas! I think everybody likes Christmas, right? I like Christmas very much. In Christmas we can open presents. Your family gives you presents, and you receive your favorite present!

    Actually when I came to America I didn’t know what Christmas is because when I was in the orphanage I never celebrated Christmas.What do they do in Christmas?

    But now I know what Christmas is. Christmas is God’s birthday!

    Many people get presents! We also put many ornaments on the Christmas tree!

    I have to tell you, our family’s present is a new sister Elyse and a new brother Max! My mom is still in China to get my sister Elyse and brother Max, soon they will come to our family! This our best Christmas present, we are very excited! We are very happy that they come to this family!

    We love you guys, Elyse, and Max!!!

  • Jasmine’s Blog – I Got a Letter

    Date: 2014.12.09 | Category: Jasmine's Blog

    In our care package, Dan sent Jasmine a letter.  He prayed and prayed about what he should say.  Months after she was home she shared with me how much that letter had meant to her. 

    (From my blog “A Leap of Faith 3/14)  Third, she shared that she cried the day she got the letter from her daddy. Dan started the letter by saying “To my beautiful daughter”.  (Jasmine told me it said pretty daughter, but it actually said beautiful.)  Jasmine told me she had always been told how ugly she was and that she read her daddy’s words over and over again and believed them. (I remember Dan worrying over whether the words in that letter were the right words. He so wanted her to know how much he loved her. I love his heart.)

    Jasmine’s heart was moved by a letter written by her daddy who she had never even met, but she believed his words.  She told me she took his letter out time and time again and read the words and cried because she was so happy he was coming for her.  She said the nanny’s would say, “What if they don’t make it in time?” and Jasmine would reply, “They are coming.  My daddy told me so.”

    I Got A Letter

     

    When I heard that there was a family going to adopted me, I was very happy! Then a couple of days later the family who was going to adopt me sent me some stuff. I felt very happy! They gave me some clothes, pants, and a pink bear. I liked it very much!

     

    I also got a letter. It’s from Dad. When I saw the letter, I felt so touched that I cried. Never had people said that I am very pretty and beautiful!

     

    That was the first time I got a letter that good. I really felt touched by the letter. I never thought that people would say things like that (she is beautiful). I thought that Dad is a very very good dad! 🙂

     

    I love you, Dad!

    Jasmine & Dad

     

    收到一封信

     

    当我听到有人要收养我的时候,我非常开心!没过几天要收养我的家庭寄东西给我,我感到非常的高兴!她们给我了一些衣服,裤子,还有一个粉色的小熊。我很喜欢!

     

    我还收到一封信,是爸爸写给我的。当我看到这封信的时候让我很感动的都哭了。从来没有人这么的说我美丽又漂亮!

     

    这是我第一次收到这么好的信!这封真的真的让我非常非常的感动。我真的没有想到会有人这么说我,我想那个爸爸一定是非常非常好的爸爸!:)

     

    我爱你爸爸!

  • Jasmine’s Blog – Children’s Day

    Date: 2014.12.08 | Category: Jasmine's Blog

    Jasmine and I had been talking about whether or not she had any days, while in the orphanage, that made her happy.   She said that there was one day a year that all the children looked forward to….

    Children’s Day
     
    Every year we have a Children’s Day on June first. At that day, our orphanage would have some volunteers that would take us to four places. 
     
    The first place we go is the zoo. We saw a lot of animals. They are so cute! My favorites are birds and rabbits. My least favorite is snake. I remember one time we saw a huge elephant.
     
    The second place we went is KFC. Our favorites are chicken nuggets and french fries. Every time we would eat until we were very very full.
     
    The third place is the playground. In there there was a horse (merry-go-round). The people said we can ride on it. So I told my sister I want to ride because I like horses. We are very happy when we ride horses. Then we rode a car. That car is very fast! However, I like it!
     
    The fourth place is the movie theater. We were watch BaLaLa. That’s our favorite! The we went back to the orphanage. 
     

    That is the best day.

    Children's Day 2

    Jasmine found these pictures on the internet.

    Children's Day 1

    六一儿童节
     
    每年的六一儿童节,我们福利院都会会有志愿者带我们出去玩四个地方。
     

    第一个是动物园,我们看到好多的动物他们好可爱哦!我最喜欢的动物是兔子还有小鸟!我最不喜欢的动物是蛇。我记得有一我们还去看又高又大的大象。


    第二个地方我们是去肯德基。我们最喜欢吃的是鸡腿和薯条。我们每次都会吃的很饱很饱。
     
    第三个地方是游乐场。在游乐场我们看到马(旋转木马),有人说我们可以坐上去。我就对姐姐说我想坐上去因为我很喜欢马。我们坐在马上的时候都很开心。然后我们又坐车子,那个车子好快呀!但是我很喜欢!

     

    第四个地方我们了去电影院。我们看的电影是巴拉拉小魔仙大电影。我们最喜欢这个电影了!然后我们就回到福利院。

     

    这一天是我最美好的一天
     
    Children's Day 3 Children's Day
  • Jasmine’s Blog – What’s on My Mind

    Date: 2014.11.30 | Category: Jasmine's Blog

    心事

     

    妈妈每次都能看到我的心事,我也不知道为什么妈妈能看到我有心事。

     

    今天妈妈看出来我有心事。今天妈妈圣把诞节的树抬上来,大家都有好多好多的东西桂上去。我只有一个花(装饰)。妈妈说在每年我可以选一样东西。我的姐姐妹妹哥哥弟弟他们有好多好多的东西,因为他们从小有他们的童年。

     

    当每次我看到他们有他们妈妈爸爸小时候的照片,我就会好羡慕我的姐姐妹妹哥哥弟弟。我真的好羡慕他们!

     

     

    其实有时候我想说如果我是妈妈爸爸的孩子那该多好呀。可是我从8岁的时候就变成孤儿了。

     

    其实今天我不想哭的,但是被妈妈看出来了。我忍不住就哭了。但是我的心还是好痛好痛。

     

    What’s On My Mind

     

    All the time mama can read my mind. I don’t know why mama can read my mind. 

     

    Today mama read my mind. Today mama put Christmas tree up. Everybody has a lot of stuff to put on the Christmas tree. I only have a flower ornament. Mama said every year I can pick one thing (new ornament). My sisters and brothers have a lot of stuff, because they start collected when they are little. 

     

    Every time I saw they have their mama and papa’s picture when they are little, I just admire my sisters and brother. I really admire them!

     

    Actually sometimes I want to say I am mama and dad’s kid, but I became an orphan when I was eight.     (I asked Jasmine to clarify this sentence because I wasn’t understanding what she meant.  After a bit of time, she was able to say that she wished mama and baba had adopted her right away when she was left at the orphanage at the age of 8 instead of when she was 14.)

     

    Actually today I don’t want to cry, but mama read my mind. I can’t hold anymore, so I cried. However, my heart is still very very hurt.

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    Every year we buy an ornament for the children that represents one thing they have really loved over the year.  I knew as soon as we started putting out the ornaments that Jasmine was sad.  I had already told her we would buy more this year since she understood Christmas better.  We had talked about it a bit and I thought it was all better but when I tucked her in to bed, I knew she was really, really sad.

    She tried over and over again to explain what she meant by saying she wished she was mama and dad’s kid.  We tried Google translate.  We tried to have the other girls listen and see if they could figure it out.  I just couldn’t grasp what she was trying to say.  I thought maybe she was saying she didn’t feel like she was Dan and my child as much as the others, but she kept saying, “No, I know I am your daughter.”

    She admitted she was jealous and felt bad about it.  I told her it was a natural reaction.  That it was good she understood that she was jealous and now she could think about ways we could make her not feel as jealous.  Daddy woke up with the great idea to make her ornaments with the pictures that we received from Love Without Boundaries.  We had pictures from each year she was in the orphanage.  We could fill her ornament box with good memories of those years.

    Then after I posted in Facebook about how it hurt my heart that she has to go through this type of pain, others asked if they could send her ornaments.  What a great surprise this will be for her hurting heart.  She can’t grasp that her life matters or that others care.  It will be another reminder every year, as we get out her ornaments, that so many people have prayed for her over the years.

    Older child adoption is hard.  There are many things you consider before you bring them home that you know will cause them pain and then there are these everyday things that take you by surprise.  They hurt my heart too because I can not make it all better and I really, really wish I could.