懒惰

有一天一个阿姨跟我说：＂你很懒。＂因为阿姨老是认为我说：“如果我能走路的话，那我就能做事儿，但是我不能走路。”所以阿姨认为我老是把我的残疾当借口。可是我从来就没有这样想过。我非常想做事情。如果我能起来的话，我会非常愿意帮助别人。而且我就会很高兴的！

 

有好多的人都说我很懒。其实我真的很想很想走路，因为我想帮助别人！我不想让人们都说我很懒。每次当别人说我很懒的时候，我就会非常非常的伤心。

 

当有一个新阿姨来的的时候，她就会问我：“你为什么不能走路？”我不知道这么回答。我不知道为什么我不能走路。然后有一个阿姨回答那个新阿姨：“因为她很懒，她说如果她能走路的话，我们才能要她做事情。”当我听了这些话之后，我好伤心。我真的没有这么说。可是就是不相信我。

 

为什么他们不相信我？为什么呢？我说的都是真话，但是他们就是不相信我．他们很讨厌我，他们也不喜欢我。为什么他们这么说我呢？我真的不明白为什么她们就是不喜欢我。难道就是因为我是一个残疾人吗？

 

阿姨们说我很懒，可是我也想像别人一样站起来。

生活在福利院真的让我很害怕，而且也很伤心．

 

Laziness

 

One day a nanny told me, “You are very lazy.” Because the nannies always thought I said, “If I can walk, then I can do things, but I can’t walk.” So the nannies thought I always use my disabilities as excuse. However, I never thought about that. I want do things very much. If I could stand, I would love to help people. And I will be very happy.

 

There were many people who told me I am lazy. Actually I really want to walk, because I want to help people! I don’t want people say I’m lazy. Every time when people said I’m lazy, I would be very very sad.

 

When a new nanny came, she would ask me, “Why you can’t walk?” I didn’t know how to answer. I don’t know why I can’t walk. Then a nanny answer the new nanny, “Because she is lazy, she said if she can walk, then we can make her doing things.” When I heard the conversation, I was very sad. I didn’t say that. But they just won’t believe me.  

 

Why they don’t believe me?  Why? What I say is all true, but they just don’t believe me. They hate me a lot, they also don’t like me. Why they saying things like that to me? I don’t understand why they don’t like me. Is it just because I am a person with a disability?

 

The nannies told me I’m so lazy, but I want to stand like other people too.

 

The life in the orphanage made me so scared and so sad.

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From Mom – Jasmine has told us often that the nannies believed she was lying about not being able to walk.  They left her food out of reach.  The nannies figured she would have to give up her charade of not being able to walk once she got hungry enough.   It didn’t help matters much that the physicians there agreed that Jasmine could walk if she wanted to.

This makes me so sad.  Since we got Jasmine’s power wheelchair, she tries helping in any way she can.  She takes dishes to the sink.  She picks up toys off the floor with her claw.  She makes her bed.  She often talks about how she wishes she could do more.  When we were discussing building a new home, she asked if we could put the laundry on her level so she could help.  This child is far from lazy.

We talk often about what heaven will be like.  How she will have a new body and be healed.  She just wants to run and play like other children.  We talk about how our time here on earth is but a short time and eternity is forever.  When she is sad about what she can not do, this brings a smile to her face.  Someday Jasmine will run and oh what a beautiful day that will be.