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Jasmine’s Dream – Forgive Yourself
Everybody in life makes mistakes sometimes really big ones, but God always forgives us.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins… 1 John 1:9
But sometimes I think I say many bad things that I can’t be forgiven and I can’t forgive myself. One time I talk to mama about it and mama says I should forgive myself because if you don’t forgive yourself it is like you are saying God is lying and He won’t forgive us. But God is perfect and doesn’t make any mistakes and His word is true. If God can forgive me, then I should trust Him and be able to forgive myself.
Some people do really, really bad stuff. Some people kill others and do some really bad stuff and they think they can’t be forgiven. They think God will never forgive them. They think what they did was too bad and they mess up their lives.
But some people do some really, really bad stuff and then they believe God will forgive them and they change their lives and do some really big things for God. People like Paul in the Bible. Paul killed Christians and then he saved Christians. He changed his whole life when he trusted God and forgave himself.
God tells us to always forgive others. Mama says I should forgive the nannys and my mama and my grandma. Mama says it doesn’t do any good to be mad at them because they don’t know I am mad. It only makes me sad and hurts my family here. It doesn’t mean that it is okay. It means that I leave it to God to judge them.
My family always forgives me when I make a mistake or I get mad. I sometimes hurt my mama’s feelings because I feel bad about myself. Mama says that people who are hurting inside hurt other people. I didn’t want mama to love me because sometimes I am afraid she will leave me too. I love mama. I don’t want to have mama leave me too.
Sometimes I think my only choice is to make everyone hate me so that I can leave and live alone. I think everybody’s lives will be easier if they don’t have to take care of me. But my choice was wrong mama says that my family would be sad if I wasn’t here and they want to take care of me because they love me.
Right now I work hard to forgive myself. I want to let my family know that I love them. I want to live here. I want to do BIG things for God. I want to make good choices. Mama always says, “Was that a good choice?” Now I ask myself that too, cause rule #1 in our house is to be kind.
If you forgive yourself and other people, you will make your life easier because you won’t be an angry person. If you don’t forgive, you become an angry person because you always think everything is about you and what people did to you, but if you forgive people, you can be happy and figure out what God wants you to do with your life.