• What I meant to say….

    Date: 2013.02.15 | Category: Adoption, Thoughts to ponder | Tags:

    She says it so well that I will just send you to her blog. 🙂

    So Long Self by Lori McCary

    It is exactly how I have been feeling lately as written in my Priorities and my Joy vs Happiness blogs.  I don’t want my life to be about me anymore.  It is hard.  Very, very hard.   I question everything anymore.  How often is too often to eat out.  How much money is okay to spend on yourself.  Does that mean you should always do without?  Every time I order pizza for our large family, I think about how that could have been another child sponsored.  It’s hard to know what is enough.  It’s hard to know how much you should give up.  The American lifestyle says it’s all about self.  It’s about bigger and better and more. It’s all about me, me, me.  But the Christian life does not say that.  It’s all about having a servant’s attitude.

    Philippians 2:3-5  Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus…

    Galatians 5:13  For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.

    It’s all about giving more.  In the disciples time, everyone took care of each other.  It was never government run support it was Christian Christ-like giving.  Why have we not been taught that in our churches? Could you imagine what could be accomplished if this was done today?

    Acts 4:32-35   All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of their possessions was their own, but they shared everything they had. With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus. And God’s grace was so powerfully at work in them all that there were no needy persons among them. For from time to time those who owned land or houses sold them, brought the money from the sales and put it at the apostles’ feet, and it was distributed to anyone who had need.

    I’ve spent way too long thinking about me.  My life has been about getting through medical school, then residency, then fellowship.  It was all about surviving until we could have the American dream.  Then we bought the nice house.  We bought the nice car.  But it didn’t change anything.  I wasn’t any happier than I was when I lived in my single wide trailer wondering if we could pay our bills.  Even then I was content.  I’ve always felt blessed.  I’ve always been grateful for all that God has giving me.  I don’t know why I thought life would be so much better with things.  I had everything before I had “things”.  It became about more than me.  It became about putting God first.   So for all of you who think I’ve lost my mind with adopting this many children in just a couple of years, I say “I haven’t lost my mind.  I’ve finally figured out what it is all about.”  It’s not about me!  It is NOT about me!  It’s about them.  It’s about following God’s lead even when I’m afraid.  It’s all about those little ones lives. It’s about keeping my eyes on the Lord and asking Him to show me where there is a need.  It’s saying “Send me Lord” and not waiting for someone else to “do something”!

    That is my new motto “Do Something!”!!!!!      In her blog Lori modifies the popular saying about wearing your body out.  This is how I want to go……

    “Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, thoroughly used up, totally worn out for the cause of Christ, poured out, completely emptied of “self” for His glory, and declaring — It was all for you, Jesus!”